Find more then Snow Bite

I went to Target today with the goal of buying Snow Bite if I found her. I got to the Monster High section of the doll aisle and found a little girl and her grandma. I always get nervous when I go to raid a toy section when other people are present, but as I stood trying to keep my cool I overheard the little girl comment on all the details of the dolls she had lined up to choose from. I saw 2 on my list in her line up and I asked her if she collected. Grandma kind of looked stunned while I carried on a 10 minute conversation with this girl about her collection.

Snow Bite from Amazon

She asked who I was looking for and I told her Snow Bite and she was kind enough to tell me she already dug through the shelves and hadn't found any other then one of the ones I had. I looked again at the 2 she had in her line up on my list. I looked her in the eyes and told her that if I were to walk out of the store with one of them, it would be Jennifire because she's a really hot doll right now, but the Clawdeen would be a close second. Her face lit up when I said that. And while I didn't walk away with a doll and resisted the urge to run back to the aisle to see who she picked, I felt really good about that chat with that little girl. I saw myself in her when I was that little and she just spoke to my heart.

I don’t always talk to kids out of fear their parents will freak out, but grandma didn’t seem to mind.

Belated Merry Christmas

Despite the usual family drama that comes with the holidays, I had a very good Christmas. I got 5 dolls in total. 4 Monster High and 1 Pullip doll I'd been wanting, but always talked myself out of.

Black Diamond

Out of everyone this year it was Daddy that surprised me most. For one, he's had a rough year. I wasn't expecting much at all from him and had prepared myself for that. I was surprised to not only get a gifty but a couple and nothing video game related!!! Ok... maybe there was one thing, but even that was meant to appeal to my little side because there where instructions to get little appropriate gamies for my 3DS! :D I knew for sure I had a Monster High doll, what one was anyone's guess, but I opened a create a monster pack that had 2 dollies i have not had yet! So I have an art project now. Miss Diamond was different because I had taken the doll off of my Amazon wishlist about a week or so ago because I'd talked myself out of her. And yet, she's coming and it's only because she isn't a froofroo girly pink doll!

This Christmas was a bit of a milestone as it was the first I felt comfortable enough with myself to be little. This went from singing Christmas music when in little head space (which thankfully only one person witnessed!) to staying up tracking Santa on Christmas Eve. I was open about this and heck! I even wore my sleeper I made! I even didn't pay much attention when a family member, who'd I'd not seen in several months, poked fun at the fact I spent a day in my sleeper, with my teddy and a sippy cup watching cartoons. Well, at least I didn't show it outwardly.

There where things however, that brought me down. Christmas is general a hard time for me mentally, even with this year being as fun as it was. There where still those dark moments of doubt and fear and shame. While I know why they are there and what triggered them, for the most part I've tried to not focus on those things. I know that I will need to sort them out. Right now I'm just proud of the fact I didn't let them drain the fun out of the holiday.

I hope you and yours had a magical holiday season and have a bright new year. :)

My Guilty Pleasure

Sunday morning has become the day to snuggle on the couch with a sippy cup of juice, my teddy and a blanky to watch cartoons. It’s my recovery time from the week so to speak. Heehee. 

I’ve been feeling more like myself again finally. Which has been bad for my bank account. Ania boo likes to buy toys and there is one collection of mine that, big or little, I have to pick up when I find a new doll.

I’ve been collecting Monster High dolls now for over a year I think. My first was, of course, the first run of Draculaura. She is my favorite of the group to where I have a few others of her dolls. But the first run of her (this means she was made before they switched them to being jointed at the hips. First runs where put together with elastic in their hips which often broke when trying to change their shoes) was the very very first for me. She’s pink, has piggy tails and is a vampire. What isn’t there to love! Well… her voice in the cartoons bothered me at first, but that’s even grown on me.

From left to right, standing, Abby, Cupid, Lagoona, Ghoulia, Draculaura. Sitting, Rochelle, Frankie.

Ghoulia was next and it wasn’t long before I found Lagoona and Frankie. Lagoona was my first to customize. Out of the box, her hair felt horrid. She ended up getting a boil perm to get the curls back that she needed. I still toy with giving her another one and trimming the ends of her hair. It’s still a tad frizzy.

After that, I was on a quest for Cupid. Abby was always in the back of my mind and then Rochelle. Cupid was the first I found. I love her even more once she was out of the box. The details on her where amazing. Officially, I’d been hunting for her for about 6 months from the time she was released. After getting her, I set my sites on finding Rochelle. I had people looking for them at this point.

At Wal-Mart yesterday, and on a whim, my mom and I were searching the toy aisles. After finding her first one for me a few weeks ago, she’d gotten a bit hooked on finding them. So as we’ve hunted, I’ve told/shown what dolls I’m looking for and what style exactly. When we stumbled upon the Monster High section yesterday, we were met by many dolls I haven’t even seen yet. Robecca and Venus were the only ones we spotted out of the regular dolls. I saw the new Ghouls Rule Draculaura and had her in hand. Then I found Abby and I snatched her up (I had never seen this doll until yesterday. I had given up hope of ever finding her in her everyday clothes. Yesterday, I found 4 between 2 stores.) As I dug through the display, hoping against home I’d find a Rochelle, I settled I’d be leaving with Ula D and Abby. Mom was still lobbying for me to take Robecca and part of me thinks I should have said to hell with it and grabber her too. I happened to look down and there was Rochelle, just sitting there in plain sight on top of the Create a Monster packs. There was squealing and jumping. I put back Ula D (Draculuara) and snatched up Rochelle, hid her and Abby under cat food in my cat and ran. It was the best high ever having my prize. Then the panic attack set in I was in Wal-Mart on the weekend before school and it was chaos.

My catch. Rochelle (pink box) and Abby (blue box)

Why dedicate a post to Monster High dolls on my little blog you ask? For one, I adore them and the message they give to little girls. They teach tolerance. This is a series based in the girls’ high school. They are all different, ranging from sea monsters, vampires, werewolves and even robots. They’ve even been in a campaign in real life to encourage others to not bully and be tolerant of others. How do you not love that?

I grew up in a period where all we had was Barbie. If I had had these, maybe I would have felt better about being different. Maybe the self-hating and the eating disorder wouldn’t have taken hold of me at a young age.

While these have been a bit of a money suck, it’s more about the adventure of finding them for me. There are rules. I don’t order them online. For one, they cost more often times. Also, I’ve heard horror stories about ordering from places like Wal-Mart or K-Mart (where they are often found cheapest) that the dolls will be thrashed or they won’t even send the right doll. I love the hunt of this. I love proudly tell the people at the register to bag the doll separate and to not squish her. I love claiming that they are mine and not for a niece.

Out of all the ones I have, the one I love most, I didn’t buy. She was bought for me for my birthday last year. She doesn’t live on her stand or even on the shelf with the other girls. She often will come along in my purse. She doesn’t wear her stock clothes even and she often will join me in the tub to play with bubbles. She is a Dead Tired Draculaura that my Daddy bought for me last year for my birthday. While I play with all my dolls a little, this Ula D speaks to me the most. I see her as a little like me. Maybe it’s those piggy tails or her jumper dress, but I look at her and see me and it makes me feel better on those rough days of being big too long.

My sweet little Dread Tired Ula D. She sleeps with me, travels with me and on this occasion, came to work with me for a friends last day. She's hiding from the sun here.

The Late Birthday and Adventure post

This is later than I anticipated it to be, but I have been caught up in a lot of person things lately that have again taken me away from being my sweet little self. I’m finally feeling more like myself again and decided to was time to share both my birthday gifties and gifties for myself from a recent shopping trip.

First off, my birthday, a day that I like to not celebrate for many reasons. This year, I took the day off, slept in late and worked on my Halloween costume. I enjoyed time in the morning with my sippy cup, teddy and blanky. I had birthday nachos, much to my sister’s dismay. I also had a lovely little basket waiting for me from here when I got up that morning.

Basket from my sister containing lip gloss, purple bat notepad, glow sticks, a funky doo little makeup type bag and hot tamales.

That weekend I went out with Daddy Shadow for dinner and to pick out my giftie. One of which was a new Monster High doll. I am a huge fan of Draculaura, and oddly enough, it’s one of the girly things he looks for. We also picked out my first binkies. Now, a pacifier is something I’ve toyed with for some time now and talked about with him and a few other close friends. Daddy decided to was time to test if it would be something I’d actually want to invest more in for a proper adult pacifier. I will post more on my love of my binkie laters in a separate post. ^_^

 Dawn of the Dead Draculaura. Pink and purple pacifiers from Daddy, but more in another post. Blue pacifier is my adult one and yes, she is propped up on Code Name Sailor V :P

After a flood of bad news, I decided to turn off my cell and find a toy store. NOW. I did find out rather quickly downtown after asking a very nice security guard where to find the nearest one. He directed me to the top floor to a place that had toys that where off the between path of Babies and action figures. To my surprise, I found the one thing I’ve been hunting for for years. A plush fox that sits upright and is just the right kind of floppy. I actually was trapped between 3 foxies, 2 small ones and then the big one. I texted pictures to Daddy, unsure of what to do. In my heart, I wanted all 3 but I knew that I should either get the two small ones or the one big. He asked if I was huggling the big one and of course I replied that I was. So the big one it was! Because he was cheaper than the 2 little ones put together, I decided to get some pretty hair ties too. 

 Theo (new foxy with black paws), Cleo (from zoo trip) and new rosie hair ties.

I walked to the market and did a little Christmas/birthday shopping for people on my list and the decided to venture to the international district. It was well after 2pm at this point and I had been out and about since around 10am. There weren’t many people around when I first got out to Seattle, but now they were everywhere. I went around the big Asian market for a little while until I just had to get out of there. I started to panic, but I kept myself calm long enough to pay for my purchases and run outside. I decided to go to Daiso after that, which if you haven’t been, is an Asian dollar store chain. The one in the international distract in Seattle is small and crammed with things. It very quickly also became crammed with people. Luckily, I was able to get an almost complete bento set and 2 lunch bags for said bento set as well as one for a friend, before panic again became a problem for me. There were just too many people. I decided to skip my late lunch and trek home on the train.

 

Almost complete strawberry bento themed set, 2 bento bags (pink one is my favorite!), sammich cutter and little clear contianers for dipping sauces and dressings and my pink heart fuzzy sock

The train ride helped loads. So did snuggling my new plushy. I ended up sick after that and wasn’t able to use my new bento set, which made me sad. I plan to change that next week though!