I’m sorry for the hiatus. It honestly wasn’t intended. Things kind of went topsy turvy and I kind of lost sight of things with it all. To much stress marks ShiShi have to be adult, being adult makes ShiShi all kinds of cranky. These periods often have episodes of full little breakdowns behind closed doors to where the only thing that can provide any comfort is my teddy bear, Korick.
Korick, was kind of a gateway to the little side of myself. This was something I had locked away deep down. I begged Daddy for a Build-a-Bear when we started dating. I threw fits. I HAD to have a teddy from there. Looking back, I feel horrible for having been such a brat about it. I don’t regret it though because over the years Korick was always there. When I let down my barriers, he was the one thing I had to have. With our breakup and everything, with all the ick, Korick was there.
Now, I honestly can’t see not having him. He is the last thing I see at night and the first thing I touch in the morning. There are times when I’m little and I don’t understand things and I’m confused, Korick is the only thing that I want for any kind of comfort. He’s the perfect kind of soft. I tug at him and kiss his nose. Often I just have to pet him and run my fingers through his fur and I start to regress.
Recently, Korick went to the spa, ei the laundry room. After several years, he was showing he’d been well loved. He was washed, brushed and his pajamas fixed. He looks brand new. Since his fluff, I pet him more. It was odd that while my adult side tended to the brushing of the mattes in his fur and the putting of him in the washer, my little side was frantic to make sure her most cherished possession wasn’t ok. To be 27 and worry about if a stuffed animal can breathe or not in the wash was a little weird. Thankfully no one was around to witness that.
My point is, not only are teddy bears good listeners to all the things, gateway drugs to all the things that are little about ones self, and protectors of us from the scary things that go bump in the night, but they are just generally awesome sauce. You don’t have to out grow them.
